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Die on your own by . Fabian Stennett




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“Die On Your Own, Live With Your Pain” — The Silent Bravery No One Talks About


Written by Fabian Stennett


There are no awards for surviving.

No standing ovation for the ones who keep breathing when every part of them wants to stop.

No headlines for the quiet warriors —

The ones who cry in silence, smile in pain, and keep going when there’s no applause, no witness, no light.


I wrote this for them.

For you.

For the ones who know what it means to suffer quietly — and still rise.


Because sometimes the most courageous thing you’ll ever do... is simply exist.



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The Ones the World Doesn’t See


by Fabian Stennett


Not all pain is loud.

Some pain just lingers in your bones,

lives behind your eyes,

and hides beneath the word “fine.”


There are people — and you might be one of them —

who walk through life with a silent heaviness strapped to their back.

People who show up for others, even while they themselves are falling apart.

People who go to sleep with tears they never explain and wake up with a strength no one ever thanks them for.


We don’t talk enough about these people.

We don’t celebrate their survival.

But we should.


Because they — you — are carrying the weight of the world in your chest…

And still managing to move forward.



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The Lie of “Strength”


by Fabian Stennett


They tell you you’re strong.

But they don’t see what that strength is made of.


It’s not courage.

It’s not pride.

It’s not resilience wrapped in confidence and sunshine.


No — your strength is made of trembling hands.

Of whispered prayers in the dark.

Of pretending to laugh when your soul is screaming for relief.


Your strength is in not giving up —

Even when the thought crosses your mind a thousand times a day.

Even when your body feels like a prison,

and your mind like a storm.


You don’t want to be strong.

You just want peace.


But you keep going — because something in you refuses to stop.


And that, to me, is the most sacred kind of strength there is.



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“Die On Your Own, Live With Your Pain”


by Fabian Stennett


It sounds cruel, doesn’t it?


But for many, it’s a reality.

Not chosen. Not welcomed. But real.


You’ve opened your heart before.

You’ve reached out.

You’ve begged the world to understand you — to see you.


And what did it give you in return?


Silence.

Disappointment.

Abandonment.


So you stopped asking.

You stopped waiting.

You taught yourself how to bleed quietly.


You became your own lifeline.


Now, you walk with wounds no one can see.

And you’ve made peace with the possibility that no one ever truly will.


And maybe — just maybe — that’s not weakness.

Maybe it’s not even tragedy.


Maybe it’s honesty.


Maybe it’s grace.



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Not Everyone Heals — And That’s Okay


by Fabian Stennett


They sell healing like it’s guaranteed.

Like it’s just one journal, one prayer, one self-help book away.


But what if it’s not?


What if you never fully “get over” what happened?

What if the ache stays?


Then what?


I’ll tell you:

Then you live with it.


You carry it like an old friend.

Not proudly. Not loudly.

But respectfully. Silently.


And that doesn’t make you broken.

That makes you real.


Some of us don’t get healing.

Some of us just get through.


And getting through is enough.



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For the One Still Standing


by Fabian Stennett


If you’ve made it this far, you already know —

This world doesn’t often notice quiet strength.

It doesn’t stop to honor the kind of bravery it takes to wake up every day in pain and still try to be a decent human being.


But I see you.


You, with the tired eyes and the quiet heart.

You, who keeps showing up for others, even when no one shows up for you.

You, who’s afraid, exhausted, lost —

But still breathing.


I wrote this because someone needs to say it:


You’re not invisible.

You’re not weak.

You’re not wrong for feeling everything so deeply.


You are a miracle in motion.


Even if your miracle doesn’t look like healing.

Even if it just looks like surviving.


That’s enough.


That’s everything.



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Closing Words


by Fabian Stennett


So, yes — maybe you’ll die on your own.

Maybe you’ll live with your pain until your last breath.

Maybe the world won’t understand you.

Maybe they never did.


But your story still matters.


You still matter.


And if no one claps for your survival —

Let this page be your applause.


You’re still here.


And that, my friend, is a quiet  Holy.



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